Covered: a Letter to my two spiritual companions

January 3, 2009

Dear B. and M.M,;

It came to me in meditation this morning to share with you some reflections and experiences I had on a trip I just returned from Malaysia on Friday.  It may be quite long, so I invite you to read it when you have the time and a cup of hot tea.

When I was making arrangements to go to Kuala Lumpur and Penang, I was struggling with eh idea that I was going on a vacation to a tropical country.  As you both know, we do not do vacations.  But I had this strong sense I needed to do this.  I told myself that it was to get healthy since I have been struggling with three separate colds since the weather has changed here in Korea.  I needed something to justify my journey.

Upon arrival in KL, I was immediately struck by the Islamic influence everywhere.  Women covered in robes with hoods and men often wearing caps.  They looked so clear and focused.  When I looked into their eyes respectfully, they were clear, focused and present.  When passing women on the street, they avoided eye contact with all men and me.  A statement of which surprised and humbled me.  I veer my eyes towards too many women lustfully and pay a price for doing=g so.

The first time I was passing a Mosque, it was right after the call for Prayer.  There were many Muslim men and women focused onto entering the Mosque on time and in the state of mind.  It reminded me of the Cabbalistic Chassidim I have observed with the same intensity and focus.  Their clothes were distinctly different from what they wear during the rest of their daily life.  The men wore robes or clean white cotton pants with either white or a soft tan top.  Everything looked so clean and cared for; sacred.  The women wore dresses or robes and their colors were a little more diverse but still simple.  The simplicity and focus left me feeling somehow out of place in my shorts and t-shirt as a not so casual observer.  Knowing that they were sweeping floors, cleaning dishes, nursing children, cooking food, selling products and laughing with friends and family minutes before in their street clothes reached a part of me I do not let touched often.  They are doing it, really doing it.  The balance between sacred and mundane was evident in every movement and step.  I wanted to watch them in prayer but felt like that was not Ok although their were others doing so, and the sign said it was permitted.  Not for me though.  I was however given inner permission to walk around the grounds and sit on another occasion on a white cement bench about fifty feet away.  I experienced a need to wear robes, and head coverings like they do. I am aware this can be done energetically but the physical covering seems to help hold the energy and intention.  I am sense we can do this through Reiki as well.

My limited real life exposure to Islamic culture and living had previously been from friends, acquaintances, Muslim literature class and the Teachers that have been given to me like Rumi, Attar, Jami, El-Ghaazzali and Hadrat Ali.  They visit me in my dreams and in meditation.  I have never walked with them in their lives and communities to witness sacred community like I did in Malaysia.  There were Mosques separated by culture- Malay and Indian, and those were common and shared by all.  I was fortunate to be walking in between two of them on New Years Eve during Call to Prayer. It was powerful I=t of feel the Call in my bones and belly so deeply. I did not know what they were saying but definitely felt what they were offering.

My experiences amongst these Muslim peoples were humbling.  I remember having a somewhat similar commitment and dedication just a few years ago.  I have swerved sometimes far and not so far from this place to stand ad miss it.  Seeing it so commonly and without fanfare or ego was embarrassing and inspiring.  I have received Teachings for the Sufis but had never really felt the Presence in the lineage of the Islamic Teachers till now.  I am now connected tot hem in a way that was foreign or ignored.  It is not that I will now become Muslim or start following Islamic practices. It is more about the intention, commitment and dedication that are what is with me at hoe in Korea.  I need to be doing this stuff the way that I made the commitments to do when I came in tot his life.  This just getting by business needs to end.  Time to step up and stand the way I have been trained and allow the Higher Self to be in charge again.  My sense is that the forgiveness will come through renewed commitment and focus.  The attention to detail that these focus practiced was also humbling and created a pinch of shame inside me. I know better than to be so involved I the world as I have been and will continue to be until I give up the need to stroke and stimulate the ego.  That is my part. That is what I am responsible for.

On a personal note, the people and food in Malaysia was excellent. I was treated kindly, respectfully by the Malay, Chinese and Indian people alike.  The food was incredible and very inexpensive.  I am grateful to be home but already miss being there.  I hope this message was not too long but felt moved to write it and share it with the two if you, and maybe others as well.

Peace and love,
michael