My Hollywood Nightmare
Posted on Sep 5th, 2008
by
michaelsits
It was nearly eighty-five degrees Fahrenheit in the Namba District of Osaka, Japan. My black backpack was stuffed with my camera, MacBook, iPod, writing book and the book I am studying Korean lazily. It weighed a lot since I had been walking around to stall time before picking up my passport and accepted E-2 work visa from the Republic of Korea as an English teacher. I had waited for this day since the day I departed the Northwest Airlines airbus six weeks ago to become a legal resident for one year as a teacher.
Last night I had a nightmare that I would be walking down the street and for no reason, a band of Japanese police officers would grab me from all angles, question me in Japanese which I do not speak, detain and keep me like all those awful movies showed at 3:00a.m. on cable of American’s lives ripped to shreds in a foreign land for no reason except country of birth. The nightmare included being beaten, raped and starved to the point of malnutrition. Yes the nightmare pierced through my belly and kept me awake for at least half the night. No visa, no flight back to Korea at 5:00p.m. and no teaching English to incredibly loving and wonderful elementary school students at Cheonanyoungam Elementary School. Life over. Till I awoke in the morning and I was sleeping on a bed in a youth hostel in Kyoto with the sun shining through the plastic window. I was not in jail but safe and apprehensively preparing for my day of travel and finally attaining my E-2 working visa. I ate breakfast at the Zen Café; the German potato salad was not very German or really potato salad, just boiled potatoes. Everything else was a little better- mediocre. The train and subway rides back to Osaka were boring and uneventful. I then walked around Namba searching for a place to eat lunch after acquiring my visa from the Korean Embassy to make sure I had a decent meal before the train ride to Kansia Airport departing to Incheon, South Korea. The plan was perfect including one more meal of fresh Japanese Sushi, a perfect plan.
Perfect till a warm “Hello” to the two Japanese police officers stations outside the Korean Embassy where I will enter at 1:30 to pick up my E- visa. Perfect till the first young officer approached me at the corner about forty feet away out of breath with his right hand placed firmly on his black pistol and his mouth and nose covered with a white pollution mask. He asked me something in Japanese, I answered by asking him, “Do you speak any English?” Before he could answer, another officer approached with urgency and got directly in front of me and looked me in the eyes and asked in broken English, “Passport?”
That is when the nightmare began. See, my visa was sitting comfortably on the desk in the air-conditioned office of the visa officer on the second floor of the Korean Embassy forty feet away. He just stared, not having any idea what I just said to him. The stare is what produced my panic, any response would have signaled at least a hint of understanding. Nothing, Nada, Zilch. Just a blank stare that began to increase intensity when he again asked, “Passport?” This time it was less of a question and more of a directive. I took a deep breath and was extremely conscious of speaking slow, even and soft- my freedom was now in serious question. I reached to take my pack off my back and a third officer approached and stopped me with fear and intensity in his eyes that were open wide. I stopped without flinching or reacting suddenly. He asked again for my passport and I again tried to explain that it was at the Korean Embassy knowing what little they understood was being communicated by an American that keeps bringing up the Korean Embassy; a two for one of Japans two greatest targets of prejudice and hate.
They then demanded to see some identification. I reached slowly for my wallet and showed them my Wisconsin drivers license, which only added to their concern. I was giving them an American drivers license when I said I live in South Korea. “Open your bag!”
I slowly released my backpack off my shoulders onto the cement sidewalk full of pedestrians walking by. I was too scared to see if they were watching or not but I could feel their stares rolling off my back. I slid the zipper of the largest compartment open and took out my MacBook covered in a pillowcase that I purchased from an old Tibetan couple at a twelve-day Teaching with the Dalai Llama in August of 1999. Then my little purple, orange, black and red knit bag that I found on the sidewalk in Madison, WI a few years ago with my iPod, cords and my black cannon S5 IS camera that shot over 500 pictures in the previous three days in Japan. My yellow, brown and ochre writing pad that is almost full of pages written this summer. The book I am learning how to read and speak Korean. And finally, my soft, clear plastic Nalgene bottle that I have drank from every day since the spring of 1995 full of tap water from the youth hostel I stayed in the night before in Kyoto. Still no expression.
The medium pocket with my small pad I carry for notes and drawings for language barrier emergencies was of no help with Japanese police. Then I saw the e-ticket for my flights to and from Incheon-Seoul airport and Kansai, “Maybe this will help”. I showed it to them excitedly until they pointed out to each other that I came from Seoul. “You came from Korea? I thought you were an American! Where is your passport!”
The officer with the white mask covering his nose and mouth from pollution spoke to one of the other officers and then looked at me and said, “We take you to police station now!” I cold feel my freedom evaporating- no E-2 visa, no flight back to Incheon-Seoul and no life in Korea or elsewhere. I motioned with my fingers for them to walk with me to the Korean Embassy to get my passport. “We take you to police station now!”
I took a deep breathe, I remembered what has worked in most life situations since I was first trained and attuned in January of 1996 in my cherry wood paneled loft out in the country. Reiki! I took another deep breath and invited Reiki into the space for a few seconds, maybe ten. Then the strangest thing happened. They all just walked away. No internal conversation, no “I am sorry for bothering you”, no “OK, you can go now”. They just independently walked away in three different directions as if nothing happened.
I was standing there on the street corner with my black pack on the ground opened by myself. I picked up my pack, slipped it on my back and walked the forty feet to the Korean Embassy. I walked up the stairs to the right passed one of the officers who just violated me and my space to the automatic glass sliding doors to enter the Korean Embassy. Up the stairs to the visa issuing officer. It was now 1:28, I was two minutes early. I sat on one of the available seats and held back my tears on the outside but on the inside, I was drenched. I survived my Hollywood nightmare in Namba, Japan.
My number was called, “13” and I was issued my E-2 visa. I shared my experiences with the officer who appeared genuinely bothered. I returned down the steps out the door past the two officers guarding the Embassy and to the sushi bar around the corner I discovered earlier for my last opportunity for fresh sushi in Japan. It was an incredible meal! I paid my bill and headed towards Namba station to take the train to Kansai International Airport.
I never thought in my life that a Korean Embassy in Japan would be such a welcome sight to an American from North Jersey just outside of NYC. For me, it was the end of the nightmare and the beginning of my trip home safely to Cheonan.
Last night I had a nightmare that I would be walking down the street and for no reason, a band of Japanese police officers would grab me from all angles, question me in Japanese which I do not speak, detain and keep me like all those awful movies showed at 3:00a.m. on cable of American’s lives ripped to shreds in a foreign land for no reason except country of birth. The nightmare included being beaten, raped and starved to the point of malnutrition. Yes the nightmare pierced through my belly and kept me awake for at least half the night. No visa, no flight back to Korea at 5:00p.m. and no teaching English to incredibly loving and wonderful elementary school students at Cheonanyoungam Elementary School. Life over. Till I awoke in the morning and I was sleeping on a bed in a youth hostel in Kyoto with the sun shining through the plastic window. I was not in jail but safe and apprehensively preparing for my day of travel and finally attaining my E-2 working visa. I ate breakfast at the Zen Café; the German potato salad was not very German or really potato salad, just boiled potatoes. Everything else was a little better- mediocre. The train and subway rides back to Osaka were boring and uneventful. I then walked around Namba searching for a place to eat lunch after acquiring my visa from the Korean Embassy to make sure I had a decent meal before the train ride to Kansia Airport departing to Incheon, South Korea. The plan was perfect including one more meal of fresh Japanese Sushi, a perfect plan.
Perfect till a warm “Hello” to the two Japanese police officers stations outside the Korean Embassy where I will enter at 1:30 to pick up my E- visa. Perfect till the first young officer approached me at the corner about forty feet away out of breath with his right hand placed firmly on his black pistol and his mouth and nose covered with a white pollution mask. He asked me something in Japanese, I answered by asking him, “Do you speak any English?” Before he could answer, another officer approached with urgency and got directly in front of me and looked me in the eyes and asked in broken English, “Passport?”
That is when the nightmare began. See, my visa was sitting comfortably on the desk in the air-conditioned office of the visa officer on the second floor of the Korean Embassy forty feet away. He just stared, not having any idea what I just said to him. The stare is what produced my panic, any response would have signaled at least a hint of understanding. Nothing, Nada, Zilch. Just a blank stare that began to increase intensity when he again asked, “Passport?” This time it was less of a question and more of a directive. I took a deep breath and was extremely conscious of speaking slow, even and soft- my freedom was now in serious question. I reached to take my pack off my back and a third officer approached and stopped me with fear and intensity in his eyes that were open wide. I stopped without flinching or reacting suddenly. He asked again for my passport and I again tried to explain that it was at the Korean Embassy knowing what little they understood was being communicated by an American that keeps bringing up the Korean Embassy; a two for one of Japans two greatest targets of prejudice and hate.
They then demanded to see some identification. I reached slowly for my wallet and showed them my Wisconsin drivers license, which only added to their concern. I was giving them an American drivers license when I said I live in South Korea. “Open your bag!”
I slowly released my backpack off my shoulders onto the cement sidewalk full of pedestrians walking by. I was too scared to see if they were watching or not but I could feel their stares rolling off my back. I slid the zipper of the largest compartment open and took out my MacBook covered in a pillowcase that I purchased from an old Tibetan couple at a twelve-day Teaching with the Dalai Llama in August of 1999. Then my little purple, orange, black and red knit bag that I found on the sidewalk in Madison, WI a few years ago with my iPod, cords and my black cannon S5 IS camera that shot over 500 pictures in the previous three days in Japan. My yellow, brown and ochre writing pad that is almost full of pages written this summer. The book I am learning how to read and speak Korean. And finally, my soft, clear plastic Nalgene bottle that I have drank from every day since the spring of 1995 full of tap water from the youth hostel I stayed in the night before in Kyoto. Still no expression.
The medium pocket with my small pad I carry for notes and drawings for language barrier emergencies was of no help with Japanese police. Then I saw the e-ticket for my flights to and from Incheon-Seoul airport and Kansai, “Maybe this will help”. I showed it to them excitedly until they pointed out to each other that I came from Seoul. “You came from Korea? I thought you were an American! Where is your passport!”
The officer with the white mask covering his nose and mouth from pollution spoke to one of the other officers and then looked at me and said, “We take you to police station now!” I cold feel my freedom evaporating- no E-2 visa, no flight back to Incheon-Seoul and no life in Korea or elsewhere. I motioned with my fingers for them to walk with me to the Korean Embassy to get my passport. “We take you to police station now!”
I took a deep breathe, I remembered what has worked in most life situations since I was first trained and attuned in January of 1996 in my cherry wood paneled loft out in the country. Reiki! I took another deep breath and invited Reiki into the space for a few seconds, maybe ten. Then the strangest thing happened. They all just walked away. No internal conversation, no “I am sorry for bothering you”, no “OK, you can go now”. They just independently walked away in three different directions as if nothing happened.
I was standing there on the street corner with my black pack on the ground opened by myself. I picked up my pack, slipped it on my back and walked the forty feet to the Korean Embassy. I walked up the stairs to the right passed one of the officers who just violated me and my space to the automatic glass sliding doors to enter the Korean Embassy. Up the stairs to the visa issuing officer. It was now 1:28, I was two minutes early. I sat on one of the available seats and held back my tears on the outside but on the inside, I was drenched. I survived my Hollywood nightmare in Namba, Japan.
My number was called, “13” and I was issued my E-2 visa. I shared my experiences with the officer who appeared genuinely bothered. I returned down the steps out the door past the two officers guarding the Embassy and to the sushi bar around the corner I discovered earlier for my last opportunity for fresh sushi in Japan. It was an incredible meal! I paid my bill and headed towards Namba station to take the train to Kansai International Airport.
I never thought in my life that a Korean Embassy in Japan would be such a welcome sight to an American from North Jersey just outside of NYC. For me, it was the end of the nightmare and the beginning of my trip home safely to Cheonan.

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thanks be for Reiki! Wow… that was a very, very scary experience. i had no idea you had had to go through anything like that.
This just happened monday, It was incredibly scary and happened so quickly. I panicked really. Glad to be safe and home at my desk typing you nicole!
I'm glad you're safe home too, I missed you and your blogs, Michael!
Talk about seeing your life flash in front of your eyes, eh?
My heart stopped beating for a moment, worrying about you! Now even though we are strangers I can feel your fear, and worry at that moment, and I am glad to hear, that at the end everything went okay for you.
May you have a peaceful day.
Peace and Love
Claudia
Thank you Claudia. Fear is fear and we all know it. It was an interesting experience in demonstrating just how vulnerable we can be in certain situations. i am also glad it worked out the way it did, believe me!Peacemichael
Hi, Michael - *thank you* for your profound and gripping account of how thin and fragile the line is between security and terror - layers and ambiguities intended.
Reiki, gratitude and love flowing -
Sylvia
Thanks SylviaYes fragile indeed. Such gratitude for Reiki for this and may other reasons at this particular time.Peacemichael
Hi Sylvia, that's an excellent point, I was so worried about Michael I wasn't thinking of it as an important commentary on the dangers of hair-trigger “security” itself.
When I was in London, I was disturbed by the constant high-alert state there. At the Natural History Museum, every bag was searched before we could go in for weapons. Heathrow had more levels of security than I thought possible to get on a plane (some entirely unnecessary, annoying, and time-wasting). There are surveillance cameras everywhere recording the movements of citizens. Speed cameras take pictures of unaware motorists.
Perhaps it's mostly necessary. If so, it's very sad.
Thanks fro sharing nicole. i have been reflecting on this very issue since monday- what is and isn't necessary “security”.The lack of security and focus on what “someone will do to me” here in korea is obvios to anyone who has come from somewhere that such concerns are the norm and embraced by the culture through media, TV and movies. Women, children and families walk the street comfortably without apprehension or caution here and guess what- NOTHING HAPPENS. On some deep level, my gut tells me there is a relationship between fear, preparing for fear, providing security, and the violence and crime that comes with it. One could argue the whole chicken and egg theory here but gut my gut tells me that locking doors, carrying mace and walking nervously IS a root cause for the crime and violence that certain cultures seem to manifest at alarming rates. It send a message to the Universe that God/Divine is not enough for me to be safe so i will use OTHER means and put my faith in them.
Just a thought.Peacemichael
Hi, Nicole and Michael - having spent some time doing non-violent vigiling in Washington DC near the Capitol building in November of 2000, 2001, 2002 and 2003 - I experienced the building up of “security” around that national focal point - and have a strong sense that a lot of peace is about attitude - and that “security” can be manipulated as a vehicle to control communities. Also - I came to question who the agents of terror were.
peace -
Sylvia
Sylvia i ask that question often myself. I've never been convinced that terrorists are who we think they are or who is responsible. Also, i think of thomas merton and his book Guilty Bystander. I went through a period a few years ago that intentionally would leave the keys to my jeep in he ignition with the door unlocked both as a testament of faith and an alternative form of “security”. the whole six years i lived in madison, wi, i never locked the door unless i had a house guest who was paranoid. i even didn't lock it when out of town on trips.Finally, i have participated in some training on non-violence, especially those with Quakers i found inspiring. The principle that “security” is not in locks, preparation or weapons/mace but in faith, love and respect was helpful.
Great conversation all!Peacemichael
a lot of excellent food for thought. I believe there is much in what you say, Michael and Sylvia. There are many good reasons to believe that a tight focus on security is going to increase the likelihood of violences, including the simple fact that if it's constantly in your face like that, you are far too aware of it, which will not be healthy for those who end up becoming violent.
Having had my computer stolen twice, I am not so comfortable leaving my house unlocked. There is a terrible feeling of violation that kicks in after a break in. But I still agree that I have to work toward the deep understanding that I have nothing to fear, because it is the truth. It is fear that is the lie.
Michael, I thought this blog and discussion very important, so have linked it to a discussion on the God Pod. http://pods.gaia.com/is_there_a_god/discussions/new/7820
Hi, Nicole and Michael - I leave my house unlocked also - but I was also thinking especially of the attitude of intimidation I've experienced from police while doing non-violent protesting. What was noticeable was that the group I was part of did their best to work *with* the police prior to and during all of our actions - and we were still greeted with riot gear when we protested the meeting of the Southern Baptist Convention. That experience was mild next to reports I've heard from the Republican convention in the Twin cities - including the arrest of several journalists, and the beatings of many non-violent protesters.
In such cases - who is more menacing? And I link that to events on a global level as well.
peace -
Sylvia
I wrote something long and thoughtful and it disappeared.I know sylvia is peaking about intimidation but i am thinking more about the force of fear and how it grows and supports the fore of violence, hate and more fear. One energetically supports the other.
When we put our trust in something beside the Divine, we set up a situation of believing in control, which is an illusion and false. If violence wants a target, no locks, guns or hiding will resist it. Similar to love, when love has a target, there is nothing that can stop it either, i guess with the exceptions of fear and the need for power and control.
Just some thoughts.Peacemichael
Very good thoughts. I started a thread about this in the God Pod and am gathering more reflections. One of the off-shoots, I think, is a post by one of my mods about a DVD he got in the mail trying to fear-monger about “radical Islamists”. This is just precisely what is not needed… so we are discussing why this sort of this is very counterproductive. peace!
It is funny how how when it is Muslims it is called radicals but when it is christian it is called fundamentalism or missionaries.
hmmm… I used to hear about fundamentalist Muslims but that shifted at some point…. the discussion on the God Pod has got quite lively lol
Hi, folks - on a related note, I saw an interesting piece recently raising the differencens in rhetoric about the Obamas and the Palins - and how those differences highlight white privilege.
Going back to our discussion of security - I'm staying with my next door neighbors during the power outage that followed the windstorm from Ike that wiped out power for hundreds of thousands of households in Ohio - these neighbors have a generator. When I parked my car near the bottom of their driveway last night - I locked it and took the keys - feeling that it was more vulnerable since it was visible and easily accessible from the street. That almost knee-jerk reaction was really interesting - it's only a few hundred feet from my turn around where I've left the car unlocked with the keys in it for decades. It's back to the issue of attitude and choices.
By the way - if anyone is interested in the piece on white privilege - mail me and I'll be happy to pass it along.
peace -
Sylvia
sylviainteresting what pushes our security triggers and how easily hat fear creeps in without notice like a cat-burgular in the middle of the night.
white privilege has been a focus of observation an study of mine for many years. Too bad it will never receive the attention that it deserves or warrents to actually affect the change necessary.Thanks fro sharing your experience sylvia, hope you get home quickly.Peacemichael
very interesting indeed, Sylvia. Yes, home safe soon, I hope.