Following my Nose

We have the option of a Tai Ji class after our session daily.  I signed up for it and paid the fee for the week.  As an unemployed homeless guy, this is a bit of a leap.  But of course this whole intensive is a bit of an economic leap for me.  My thinking was that I am here doing this Qi Healer Intensive when will the opportunity come again?  So I added this to my already growing credit card balance.  So much for fighting Corporate America.

Yesterday, after our Qi Healer session, I was anticipating the Tai Ji class.  It was a but a few minutes in before I knew in every inch of my being that this class at this time is not something I am to participate in.  The shift in energy and brain rhythm is too great for a sensitive Soul as myself.  I hung in there fort hr entire 60 minutes; I did not want to disrespect the teacher or anybody else.  I remembered along the way what I did appreciate about the form of Tai Ji when I used to practice in the early nineties.  But still knew this is not what I am to be doing at this time.

I think folks often neglect the equally important question of not just if we are to do something but also at this time.  Timing is critical.  We may not be ready yet.  Something about the environment or situation may need to shift before we participate.

I remember in 2002, when I first arrived in Madison, WI and was a member at the local co-op, Willy Street Grocery Co-op.  After a few months, one night I was on line to pay for my produce and bulk grains, I received an Inner sense that I was to do Reiki with the young woman who was the cashier that I had never seen nor met previously.  Knowing there are few social graces that support walking up to a cashier worker and offering Reiki to her; I did some discernment and decided this was not the time to have that conversation with her.  It would happen when and if it was meant to be.  We became acquaintances from each time I went through her line and continued to receive the same message in meditation that it was not time yet.  This process lasted about a year and a half.  The one day I knew it was time to mention it to her.  I casually spoke about her and Reiki and left.  The next time I was there, about a week later, she flagged me down and excitedly shared that she did want to receive a Reiki treatment and we set up a time to do that Friday night after her Yoga class.  Over the next few months we had several Reiki sessions and they were all intense, powerful and intimate.  The tie was right and we were both ready.  That is how it works.

This morning I woke knowing in my gut that I was not to suppose to participate in the Tai Ji class any longer.  I knew this would be awkward since the instructor is my teacher’s daughter and everybody in my class is also in the Tai Ji class.  At lunchtime, I let somebody know I was not going to participate any more.  They gave me a somewhat concerned look but it was no big deal.  The time is not right and that is that.  Just following my nose.